February 24

So, there is this issue.  It is an ongoing issue which has been going on for many years.  It is not a devastating issue but not is it a negligible issue, I regularly feel moments of sadness which I relate to the issue even when the issue is not impacting me at that moment.  There seems to be no resolving the issue, and there seems to be no intention or hope for resolving the issue.  Certainly, the solutions I have tried have not resolved the issue in any way.  There are others involved so there may be solutions but that is not what I am thinking on this month.  This month my meditation is how can I be the best person I can through the issue, and could I be my best person, or close enough to my best person, should the issue never be resolved.

A voice
The problem with not having a voice is that the only way to maintain a sense of self...

Ignored
I don't know what tomorrow brings.  I am at a loss for what my plan is. ...

Tackle
Like the snail pulling back into the shell, hiding underneath the leaf, waiting for the...

Wild house
A story about the characters involved in a violent act over a few days.  The fool...

Snippets
Snippets, like walking part the dead bird, the bird in the street hit by a car, a pigeon,...

Memory and forgetting
I wonder if I am forgetting things.  I wonder if I am forgetting more things than I...

Duck le jaune
It must be good to be a duck in weather like this.  Not only is the water off your...

Favourite Fairy Vampire
There is a certainty in the writing, a brevity that, no matter how brief, leaves the...

Which best
What is the best me that I can be this week.  Is it the me that will make me the...

Change
The joy on the faces of the young and old alike as they bent and twisted the clay to the...

Shortbread
Today I made the best millionaire shortbreads I have made.  The shortbread was...

Backseat
The back seat, what a luxury.  Having the time and space to sit back and not worry...

Top table
For a moment it felt like I had finally understood zen, I had made peace with the path...

Janet
Janet had been an unpublished author for nearly two months now and the redundancy money...

Faking Zen
It appears the best approach to seek out the correct approach to Zen, is to fake...

Outside the words
Today I had a conversation I haven't had for a long time: about childcare, house...

Greg
Everything is hard, all little interactions, all conversation, all of it is hard. ...

Avoidance
Strangest thing, fearing confrontation.  I guess I worry that I might appear...

Piss poor
One day, when I am big I am going to work out what it is that I want to be.  It...

All the bits
Helpless, frustrated and angry that nothing I can do makes any difference.  My body...

Something kind
It looked like wax, an interesting form but the position gave away it was gunge leaking...

Red velvet warmth
For a moment, then for another moment life flickers into pleasantness, into a gentle warm...

Unexpected dread
Isn't it amusing how a day in which progress has been made but tasks not complete can...

Thought and imagination
And the meditation has meandered it's way to the designated dropping off point. ...

Twenty24
As I allocate the server space to the unordered thoughts of the year I hope that,...