Emotional fortress
To figure out the meaning of it all we need to understand the negative, need to work out why there are situations and people who cause my downward spiral like a WWII plane crashing. Is it just anxiety about the expected loss of the oh so fragile emotional paper fortress I think I may lose?
Perhaps meaning can be found in feeling good, hedonism is such an appealing ideology. I feel good when I win, when I wine (in moderation) when I am entertained, or when someone shows me a clever thing or turn of phrase, I feel good when you flirt with me, so perhaps I should flirt with you first.
