On Death

And when there is a momentous moment, and the momentum is for a mass memorial, my individual response is not contrary for no reasons, but with the understanding of good done from a position of injustice, outwardly what is seen is as convoluted and impenetrable as this paragraph, so be it.

Would life be better if I had a project, a meaning, something that I was continuously trying to work on, like fixing up the house, but as don't feel part of the family it doesn't drive me, and my career is a cesspit of dead ends, but writing is so disheartening, so what could I believe in? Finding a seaside stationary caravan to rent?

This darkness
Plummeting down this darkness, once again, yet once again, and as I fall my memory is...