Inconsistent synapses

I wonder, sometimes, if I could possibly be wrong, perhaps, inside, somehow, the connections wired into my synapses are inconsistent, irregular, defective.  I wonder why I don't seem to care for the things I know people care about, or how ti can't make my impulses understand what my philosophies believe 

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