Be yourself

What he wants, what he so desperately wants is for them to like him, but he feels like a fraud, because he feels unlikeable.  He worries that his jokes are not funny enough, that he is not assertive enough to be respected.  He is worried his assertions will mark him as a fool, an idiot.  No one likes an idiot, he knows this.  But the truth is he is a fraud.  Everything anyone sees is a carefully crafted facade.  An image he thinks people.want to love.  He is the fool for creating this ludicrous construct, simply be yourself even if you are not going to come up with those witty lines in the songs you love.

The fundament seems to be so unstable but, as the book said, if I can open my mind to the bigger picture, if I can let go of the little things (they are mostly little things) then I will be the better off.  I can listen to the talk about football, and tell my anecdote about getting stuck in a police cordon, accidentally.  And I can listen to the laughter and get the dishes done.  

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