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If I told you about them I would say they are a conversation in my mind.  While that is not a lie it is a very one sided conversation.  See, what happens is I think of the things I would like to say, I go through the words, the exact words I would use.  But I don't wait for your reply, I change my words, I change the last phrase.  I reorder my thoughts and start from the beginning again.  And again.  I one sided conversation which I never hear your reply

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