Then I would like to make sure I am always trying to be better because being better is worth trying for, perhaps just being better will help a little flash of something worthwhile. Just to be a little more worthwhile.
When I base a story on my past, the character starts off in my mind the hero but moves quite quickly into disfunctional blundery, sometimes an honest reflection of the past but sometimes with villainous detail added to truly cast the hero into the mire.