The trick

I wonder if the trick is to simply think to yourself you are going to enjoy the journey, whatever the metaphysical journey you are taking.  It seems to be how it works when I am enjoying the thing, even if it is a hard thing.  So I guess the trick is to be very convincing when I tell myself I am about to enjoy something I don't like doing.

What will it be like when no one knows what the visual equivalent of white noise is.  What will be the shorthand, the visual shorthand when I am no longer in the conversation.  It feels like I am being pushed out of earshot, probably really the conversation is moving away from me and I am just a bit too tired to try to keep up.

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